Feels like my head is an empty vault. I wake up, walk outside, lay down on the grass and gaze @ the sky. I don't even bother to pour my madeira into one of granny's crystal glasses, I just bring the whole bottle. Sometimes I fumble my way through her wardrobes until I fall asleep in a pile of designer clothes on the floor.
Things just keep getting more and more strange. Ppl want me to delete this blog and "shut the fuck up about things that's not mine to share". The attorney came 4 a visit last night. An american spirit in the corner of the mouth, sweat dripping, shirt buttoned wrong.
"You have to be careful with what you say." He said. "Not everyone is your... friend."
I just stared @ a point above his head.

Yeah, there are crazy ppl out there, and some of them have money and weapons and a lot to hide. But "the real world" is like a blurry photo to me. I can't see the motive, no matter how close I look.

Truth is: I'm not allowed to give you (or anybody else) any details about the funeral. Or about granny. Or about other stuff I've been planning to tell you. But I'm fed up to the ears with secrets, so I'm think I'm gonna reveal them anyway. If you want me to?

<3

15 comments:

  1. your story is intriguing. i'm very interested in what you have to reveal. not only because i'm curious, but don't you think it would help you heal, grieve, move on, find joy, find closure, feel peace.... any reason really.

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  2. madeira tastes best in mcqueen.....
    love,
    katie

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  3. Reveaaaaal!!! ;)


    xoxo*
    www.ivaniadiamond.com

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  4. it's your life, it's your story... everyone deals with things differently... i think ur blog's amazing... and hope u'll keep unraveling all your secrets :)

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  5. freedom of speech -don't you have that in Hollywood?

    xoxo, Jacqueline

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  6. Only if u want to, my dear. But I will listen <3

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  7. reveal your secrets!

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  8. stupid lawer. doesn't matter if the bad ppl out there are not your friend. we are. but you and only you can decide what 2 do. I don't want you to be in danger, but I'm so curious!
    oh God, I'm confuse.

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  9. It makes me so angry to hear that people are putting you through this..trying to hold you back from all you are sure to accomplish. People get crazy sometimes when they see someone who's about to break the mold and really get people's attention. Stay strong beautiful girl, you are so amazing and so talented, and your blog inspires me so much. Just know you have many people supporting you whenever things get hard or it seems like people are out to get you. <3

    x Sea

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  10. please don't ever stop...don't let the narrow-minded jerks of this world get you down...you are too powerful...<3

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  11. This blog is captivating! Simply amazing.

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  12. your mind & creativity is captivating.

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